This were all the stuffs you wrote to me. How could you simply say things without thinking in the tagboard, saying to break away from me. It HURTS.
'-Jaeee,
Friday, February 10, 2006:
i didn`t receive. and lastly, i don`t see you in school one lah?

'-Jaeee,
Saturday, February 11, 2006:
whatever my aunty say i`m not ineterested lah. -.-you all always do things behind my back. smack you all man. irritating.i can`t call can`t sms. my msn also crazie crazie de. what the hell. i`m very busy these days lors. cos of coursework. must study study study. so many tuitions tuitions. gonna go crazie. sigh, i hope your friends did well in Os alright? so you can celebrate with them. your gmail thingy, i other day then see. brother wanna use com.takkare. i`m busy until i can`t breathe. i gotta go grandma house le. =)

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
i didnt change my number for god sake. i don`t want to be somebody or whatever who manipulates your thoughts. i mean, you`ve a chance to go to NZ. why not? it`s a way of starting life all over again. no doubt you`ll miss you friends and family. but you can be somebody. you can fulfill your wishes, you can be recognised. you may be thinking i`m a faker again. whatever. i jsut think it`s a good opportunity to prove yourself. i never wanted to talk to you bout going to NZ, i knew it before you told me. cos i went to your blog. i don`t want to let you have second thoughts of staying. why not just give it a try?things may turn out better? you won`t know.but if you`re not in a stable condition.do consider.cos you`ll be alone. just hope, you won`t forget us. takkare.

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
one more thing, friday. i have supp class and two tuitions, so i can`t go out. saturday i promised brep-ers already. this time, they`re the first. it`s not like what you say, afraid they`ll be angry bah. i don`t know either. sometimes, you really know me better than i do. yesterday, i went to the national library. and went to suntec. =) those bits and pieces of memories. brought back that little sweet sweet feeling. loll. x)

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
whenever i go to your blog, and see you posting things. especially writing about you going out with your friends and having fun. i just get so emotional. i feel so happy for you. it`s like, seeing you happy with your friends. they are the only one who can really make your smile, and just let you forget all your troubles. thou i know you sure spend a lot of money de. -.- but i`m just happy, happy you have fun with them. loll. remember, post more in your blog alright? then i`ll know hows your life. cos i don`t see you in school and stuff. you don`t come down for recess. and sometimes, i don`t too. sorry, i`m talking too much. =)takkare.

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
oh, and one more thing. =xi won`t be signing into friendster so often already.BUT you still must write and tellme how are you alright?whee!`. thankyou!`.Jaeee.

'-Jaeee
Monday, February 13, 2006:
loll,i expected this to happen already. i know you would think i`m faking my way through. thinking how much i want you to leave to get rid of you that`s why i asked you to go to NZ.i don`t mind already. how people think about me,i don`t really give a damn anymore.to you,i`m just someone who lies my way through everything.and i don`t think i can go out anymore either.i told you i`m going out,then i asked my mother.she said can`t.so i`m hoping i can ask her again so she`ll let me lors.don`t waste your friday and saturday waiting for me, do something useful.oh!`and i received a very nice valentine`s present from you!`.loll.you ate during recess today.whee!`so happy.when i saw you and laughed to myself.brenda thought i was mad.so throw face. >.< and i scored full marks for my amaths!`happy for me? whahahs!`i beat out the bitches,can this be a valentine`s present for you? x) i`m so happy i won them.friday i sure no time de, don`t need to see.takkare oh.happy valentines!

Jamie-
thankyou for caring,thankyou for your naggingsthankyou for your constant reminders.thankyou for everything.thankyou for understanding.thankyou for asking my friends look after mesorry for blowing my tops.sorry for throwing tantrums.sorry for the misunderstandings.sorry.. for giving updon`t always make extra efforts to make a girl happy. in the end, it will turn out like us. backfired.don`t do it to the next girl.she`ll get too pampered.

Re: Jamie-
maybe, i know. i shouldn`t blame you cos of wendy.but metally, it affects me. even when i see nelson.i get irritated. i just hate it.those comments she had on me, she told people about it. i can try to forget.but the hatred`s building up in me already.reply to this in friendster. don`t email me in msn.

Re: hey...
loll, i know who are you. always see you in schoolwith andy and yur other friends. just dunch knowyur name.and i added you in msn ler. Jaeeee`so

toyou,
okie, i`m fcuked up by your questions. very can.you`re smart you know what i mean when i say don`t let the love i have become hate. hell, i get so much stress and anger when talking to you.everything`s not going right.not even s SINGLE thing.everyday tuition all this.yah, i need something. very very seriously.i need to cool off, need to be alone. even my friends know i`m going crazy.blahblahblah, [am i daniel`s substitute?]] whattheHEAVEN. if i asked you am i your ex`s substitue, it`s as good as asking you to find another girl. feeling`s the same. thankyou very much. you kinda make me hate you.like i said, your answer`s too fcuked up. i won`t answer. and now what will you think? i`m showing my temper cos i`m denying it. so be it man. luoping, jiayi even you provoking me. nevermind, my life will get better each day. i`m not going to give a damn.seriously, i`m very hard on you. i admit. i really am. my attitude, temper, character sucks.but your questions piss me off even more can. my vulgarities are unstoppable alreadyeverything have came to this stage when there`s no turning back.sorry.takkare, get well soon.Jaeee`so




-DEAD
I don noe wat u said to ur dad to make him accuse me of harassing.i'm blamed once again.i made appointments with ur aunt.but she's always busy?hard to even make an appt.well...I kept my promise.But,i still accused of harassing.=)msg u don even wanna rpl?don even wanna tell me wat happened to you?well.den lets jus wait & see ...........

last goodbye
wanna care don wanna care?up to u.guess,there's someone wooing u or trying to date you now.i don noe if u have the perseverence.i don noe.tomolo,i would be away for some time.don wanna spend tat day or watch a movie with me.fine with it.

Re: Jamie-
say you were at ur grandma house the whole day.but you could tag.say you went ur grandma hse with ur whole family.but i called wrongly,called ur hse.someone picked up.sighs.i don noe.can you tell me?sorry.i was out,grandma hse.but i accidentally called ur hse.haven even ring,they jus picked up.plspls.tell me why can?sighsi wanna go watch movie with you

happy anniversary=] 27o1oSix
tomorrow's 27th.haas.guess you're onli willing to keep ur frens entertained.Well,today when i saw you with those guys.I'm wondering.Well,i'm fuming.But wat can i do?run there,ask u?call ur fren?Nope.I did nothing.I don have to ask or say anything.You know it urself.Coz even u don wanna say,wanna hide.I wont know also.Agree?Enjoy urself during chinese new yr.This isn't a yr for me.Everything's not right.U hiding frm me.Lying to me.Mixing with guys when you said you wont.Till you wann see me den say.I broke down.wat i wan say to u last night,i wrote in a letter.One day,particular day.When in need.You will get to read it.For u onli=)now,i can only stay aside.Subtle the pain.stand on the peak of the mountain.looking you from afar.I lost myself.My everything..oh ya.coz of wendy again.i quarrelled with kenneth.jus like how she spoiled us.sorry.I'm being a stalker to you.ur frens believe me.do you?i don noe.ask urself den.sorry.

Re; Jamie-
argh!reply my mail at 4.30.den i mail u.never rpl.den u rather change blog skin.and u still pu "MR MINGHAN" inside! HELL~you say you will delete it when u change skin.now u change skin le still don wanna take it away.Cant forget him right?!argh...den take away mine la ass..I'm going out later at 10 to the airport with kiat they all.to fetch Lim..I REALLY DON GET IT! TILL NOW AFTER EVEN WAT HE DID TO YOU.YOU STILL CANT FORGET HIM.I HATE THIS FEELING! SUCKS MAN! SAY MET U.JUS SAY TOMOLO PLEASE DEN SWITCH OFF PHONE.WATS THE MEANING OF THING.ASS`~

Re: Jamie-
your frens are impt to you.onli they can make you happy.Not me.Like wat u said,i always give you troubles.Nothin den happiness.Is tat really me?Hav you asked urself?if u kept ur phone properly.would ur parents find out?i told u once before,i don wan our relationship to be kept in the dark.i wan ur family to noe.But did you.Maybe you tried.but everytime we had to break up,you're the one deciding everything.i don hav a say.do i?abt wendy's stuff.you say it's my fault,you blame.well,it's oki for me.Since i've been maligned by almost EVERY single one in my life.including you.but have you thought?if u had nv ask val to msg her in the first place.would all this happen?Even i apologise now,it sounds kinda fake.coz u onli trust ur fren.Wat bout me?Mine are all bullshits.I gave you the best.taught you.But did i expect anything frm you?nv..onli letters.but have you?ya,i'm a picture of a sucker.I'M ALWAYS TRYING TO BE THE GOOD ONE.IN THE END,I'M THE ONE WHO'S BEING BLAMED ALL THE TIME.CAN I REALLY TURN OVER A NEW LEAF?CAN I?I WANNA BE ALONE FROM NOW ON.I DON WAN TO RELY ON MY FRENS EVER AGAIN.WHENEVER I FALL,YOU'RE ALWAYS ENCOURAGING ME.BUT NOW?EVEN THE ONE I LOVE & TRUST...DECIDED TO BELIEVE IN HER FRENZ.NOE HOW I FEEL?SORRY. USELESS ME NOW. I WANNA CRY,DON WANNA FALL SICK.CAN I? I CANT. Y?THERE'S A DEEP CUT IN IT. IT'S SUFFERING.NTH CAN HEAL IT.

Re: toyou,
you wanna play hard?lets get it started.=)i wont threat.jus play

Re: toyou,
orh...okokie.i noe..noe u're being accused being a hypocrite.i noe how's the feeling like.well,jus don bother bout those bitches lahz.since u already say they're bitches,wat for waste ur time & energy getting angry on them?they don noe how to utilise their brain.jus let them be.Jus keep ur cool.don let them noe u're easy irritated.they'll definitely make u even irritated.jus don feel anything,let them say watever they wan,till they're sick & tired .they'll stop it eventually.coz they already noe,no point continue speaking ill of u.coz u don give a damn.tats wat i always do.well,sorry.i shouldn't say tat i'm [ur substitute].sighs.i noe u love me alot too.now i noe wat u realli wan...u realli need alot of time alone.cool off.jus study.rest don bother other irrelevant stuffs.i noe u're really tired coz of extra lessons * intensive tutions.But do take care of ur health oki?don skip ur meals! Though i wont be going for recess.i'll bring something to eat if i can la.Don worry k?i noe u don like me to skip recess .but no choice.i don wan to mix around.sorry.wait till u cool down le den have a good chat with me lors.take care baby gurl...ya.coz now having headache & gastric.so cant get to sleep.den yvonne jus called me frm New Zealand oso.haha.She say it's cold there!loll...k la.i noe u'll definitely nag at me if i still don slp..i'll try to slp noe okies?see ya in skool!
written` coffee guy
16o1o62.44am

27th,i heard you calling me "xiao tou" again. Though it sounds awful, but i sense the feeling of accomplishment.Knowing,you accepted me once again.ILU=)

Third time we didn't get to celebrate the 27th again.sighs.It's the fifth month le.Anticipating for the twelve month? Hmmm. Last mth we can actually celebrate,but instead you went out with pings! Argh! You're driving me crazy.
This month, 'cause of wendy's stuff. We were like having a guerilla war. Playing hard against one another.Shall we stop? Now,it's chinese new year. Let start all over again alright?No one can ever spoil us. What you gave me, I would cherish. What i gave you , cherish it too! what we did together,where we went & wat we bought. Remember alright?!

I think,you're too weak & sensitive when it comes to "LOVE".you know why?'Cause you're afraid of losing,being hurt too. But you jus wont express it out or rather even say it . I mentioned before,i can nv make you jealous.Well,but i did before.

Sorry darling,for
1.Letting chingfang post in my blog (sept 13 'o5)
2.Messaging you to say guanting they all pinch me & stuffs.(dec 13 'o5)
3.Carrying guanting(jan 8 'o6)
4.Wendy tried to spoil us (jan 19 'o6)

I'm really sorry dearie.I cant pomise you tat it'll nv happen again.But i can assure you.Trust this relationship,have faith in me.Cause i will nv wan or rather say i will let you down.It's all because I LOVE YOU!

Jamie lim Yan Xiu,LISTEN UP CAREFULLY.Chris loh Yi Zhou only have one honey,one dearie,one da tou,one auntie,one darling,one dear & one mrs loh.THAT's YOU LA IDIOT!
Must I make it so clear to you?You should know the best lors! If i don love you,I wouldn't wan to go through all this hardships for you lors.BEN DAN!

I wanna list down the things i hate you to do!
1.LYING TO ME!
2.Mixing so much with guys with you a girl only!
3.ignoring me
4.Treat me like nothing
5.DRINKING!
6.Don wan to meet me
7.Going out with your frenz so much instead of me.
8.Telling me you will jump down with me!(ASS!)
9.Crying
10.Not telling me ur troubles

I know i made a big lie to you.But i really don wan you to worry & get hurt.Making you feel i'm a burden to you.Sighs.But you forced me to say.But wat a said cannot be taken back right?So,since i've tell you.You have a real burden le,i must report whatever things to you.You must take good care of me.You must look after me.You must not leave me alone!

I have to eat breakfast le.Message me again lors.

Love you lotss!
mr loh`
29o1oSix

that small head dear have blogged so i will follow up.
i never give my email and number to a lot of guys okie? i really hate it when you say that. so blame yourself for ruining my new year!` i told you le. i will tell you gradually why i`m addicted to you. but not now.
i`m always telling you i can`t wait to go to school right? cos i really wanna see you everyday. with no restrictions and without lying to my mother. that`s what i want. now that i`m blogging here. i`m so scarred that they will see it. but i wanna convey all these to you. and my mother`s like walking around. darn stressed.
i like to see you in uniform you know? don`t know why. i`m mad. loll. can`t wait to study hard either. can`t wait for my o level to be over. i really can`t wait.
we`ve been out for 3 days consecutively!` but i knew you had to wait for me or my friends for 4 hours. and yesterday. sorry. don`t talk about the past right. but i still gotta aplogise. for the things i did.
last holiday, many things happened. but i gotta admit. sometimes i`m happy when you`re jealous. wahahaha. this shows you love me okie? =] but as i promised you, i won`t you jealous. you shouldn`t be jealous. have faith in this relationship of ours. ian and i are past. friends. normal friends. i think he`s clear enough. zhizhong, i told you he`s staying in 4e3 right? but he checked again. and it was like. false alarm?
i really enjoyed the times i spent with you. the past few days. thou i had a hard time when i got home. but sigh, i don`t wanna talk about it. and dear, don`t buy so many things for me alright? i don`t need anything. i don`t want you to buy anything. i don`t feel happy when i receive it. even the jigsaw. i feel guilty. i hate it. cos you spent to much money and effort. and nothing for yurself.so please don`t do that alright?
these few weeks, months. thankyou for tolerating my nonsense. i`m really ridiculous at times. especially my temper, i`m too spoilt i know.but i don`t wanna change. i wanna stay this way!` i wanna be spoilt. i just wanna live with my own attitude, simple. that`s all. but when i have to change. i will.
yah,i`ve been very vulgar right? sorry. especially with those [fcuk] sorry. i`ll change. cos i know if i go to school, it may be worse. i can even scold things worse then [fcuk]] but i changed. loll, like you. i`ve my past too. but who cares right? it`s the present.
i got myself drunk too. yah, i`m afraid now. bitten once, i never wanna touch it again. but as time goes i will see. thou it was a painful experience. but i`m glad you were there for me. sigh. i was..the feeling is totally undescribable. just sucks. that`s all. i broke my promise, i drank without you. i don`t mind you controlling me. like what my parents say? for my age. i`m wild.
sorry. i`m always breaking my promises but you never failed to forgive me. thankyou hubby!`
i wil try to cut down on my swearings and stop drinking. cos yah..i admit. i`m really kinda wild.
the trip to taiwan i was kinda sleep, cried without anyone knowing. but yah. from there, i adapt to that place. or i will be worse than that. luckily my fever stopped on the second day and stuff. i was so relieved.
wahahah, and you know what? i love to threaten you. just love to see yur reaction.
i`m indecisive. i wanna grow up fast. but i still wanna be spoilt. be a baby in my parent`s eyes. i`m greedy. want everything.
i apologise, i bought nothing for you. from taiwan.
after knowing you. i`ve learnt a lot of things. in life. take initiative in saying things i never did before. like sorry. in the past, to me. it was the hardest word to say. after knowing you, i treasured my friends and family more.
yah, i do pay for them at times. but they do pay me back, or just like treat me and stuff. i`m fine. i just need your guidance. that`s all. the path is mine, i gotta walk on. or i`ll be stucked in the middle forever.
easily said than done right? i`m so foolish. loll.
whatever it is, i just need you. and i`m glad you`re always there.
thankyou hubby.

lots of hugs and kisses,
Jaeeee.

Once again.The blog has revived after 2 months!
Yeah! 'cause it's a new yr...Both you and me had agreed
to start everything anew and leave the painful past behind.
Wahaha.Jamie!I hav lots and lots to tell you eh.Coz,these few
days,we'd went out and enjoyed ourself so much!Agree?
And we did so many things,played arcade,walking in the
rain at marina,protected you,and lot more!Dearie,enjoy
urself right?Esp at the shelter at marina.It's like,the whole
park belong to us lors.HaHa.You are so save in the shelter,
but i'm in pain!Bitten by so many insects till my legs all swollen.
Sighs.Painful and itchy.I scratch till it bleed le.I really cant stand
the itch man.Sorry.

Well,in msn.You set nick set as "i'm addicted to you".I'm really touched.
I really do.But i don really get to noe fully why are u addicted.'Cause you
claimed tat you'll tell me gradually.But you nv lors.Hmmm.Let me guess
so much.It's a New YeaR!So i don wan to bring up our past again!HeHe.
Lets live our new year's life fully!And meanwhile,endure the last crucial
lap of ours!We can do it! Tell urself tat dearie! After we made it,the least
trouble and burden we'll have for our realtionship.

I wanna take this chance to apologise to you too.Sorry dearie.I've said some
things which are very hurting these few days.I'm sorry.I hope you can forgive
me.So bad right ur hubby?You love him so much,and this is wat u get.I promise
you,i'll nv do it again.There're really some things i don like abt.I'll list it below.
Some i've already sms you,so those not mentioned i'll write it down here.=)

1.I don like u to post so many pics in frendster.
2.I don wan ppl who can view ur profile so easily.
3.I don wan you to give ppl ur email add and contact no.
4.I don wan u to sms so much with those guys.

Can you do it?Hmmm.I really care alot for you.Thats y i hav restriction for you.
Don say i will care for other girls.Coz i onli care for you.It's really onli you.I don noe
wat can actually made me be so addicted to you too!HaHa.Tats for both of us to find
out too.I finish my dinner le lahz.Don worry..Now you're having ur dinner.And i finish
blogging le!

I love you honey,dearie,mrs loh,baby gurl,mummy,dear,luo sao,da tou!
I really love you alot!
Wahaha!Bleahs.DA TOU!

lots of love`
Chris loh
01/01/06
8.58pm

this blog, should be left un-touched until we`re back together again

we shall see, if we will be defeated by time.
today, thanks. thanks for making a trip outside school to help my younger sister. but, it kinda didn`t help. cos luoping`s sister said she wanted to go home and blah blah blah. purely hum. i can`t stand such freaks. who cares if suaidi was there. he`s fucked up too. nevermind, i get a little pissed when i talk about this.

what happened yesterday, i apologise. it`s like.. i gave you a lot of promises, but i broke most of them, oh no, it should be i broke all of them. i will still listen to you, takkare of myself and stuff. but a clear cut. i appreciate everything, every single thing you have done for me. it`s barely two months and this thing happened. my deepest apologies. =)
thanks for always doing tihngs my way, for instance, this incident.you didn`t have a say in anything. i didn`t give you a chance to disagree, i forced you to accpet everything i said.not giving you a chance to speak. sorry. selfish me. i apologise too.
yesterdaye, shu min called me and said you were crying. i`m so sorry. you cried many times for me, you told me. sigh, don`t cry for me. i`m not worth your tears, thou you said i am, my mindset`s already there. and realy very very very very very very very sorry, your mother.. i really hope she`s okie. send my regards to her. for because of me, she was worried for you.
you`ve a lot of problems like what you said, your grandma, your business, your parents` business, your health, and your bills. sigh, don`t worry so much yah, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi. things will turn out find, just never give up, that is when you will fail. be stong ya? i`ll give you my morale support. jia you. =)

you have a lot of things in life you wanna achieve, this relationship of ours can wait, if time is defeated by us, then we willl be together. you don`t have to promise me that i will be the only mrs loh and stuff, it`s really vacant, i`m miss lim. sorry, =) if we get defeated by time...then we will talk about it then yah?. one year, it`s fast. everything will be okie soon. never let what happened yesterday affect you. instead you should be happy, i`m not trying to laugh at you or anything. but although your mother`s in hospital. this somehow proves one thing, she cares for you a lot. she`s willing to share your problems with you, so don`t disappoint her. take good care of your siblings. your life ain`t miserable. you still have more obstacles, that`s where you learn to be strong and start to mature,
takkare guy.
miss lim,